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  <title>I wish...</title>
  <subtitle>...And hope</subtitle>
  <author>
    <name>bRit</name>
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  <updated>2009-04-14T02:53:59Z</updated>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hopesnwishes:62632</id>
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    <title>4+ Miles a day CLUB!</title>
    <published>2009-04-14T02:53:59Z</published>
    <updated>2009-04-14T02:53:59Z</updated>
    <content type="html">&lt;p&gt;&lt;br /&gt;4+ miles a day starting April 14, 2009! &lt;br /&gt;I will record information starting April 15 to see my improvement.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Make a note of:&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;1.&amp;nbsp; How many miles?&lt;br /&gt;2.&amp;nbsp; Start and Finish time.&lt;br /&gt;3.&amp;nbsp; Lbs lost/ body fat %&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;-------------------------------------------------------------------&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;4/15&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;1.&lt;br /&gt;2.&lt;br /&gt;3.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;4/16&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;1.&lt;br /&gt;2.&lt;br /&gt;3.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;4/17&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;1.&lt;br /&gt;2.&lt;br /&gt;3.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;4/18&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;1.&lt;br /&gt;2.&lt;br /&gt;3.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;4/19&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;1.&lt;br /&gt;2.&lt;br /&gt;3.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;4/20&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;1.&lt;br /&gt;2.&lt;br /&gt;3.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;4/21&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;1.&lt;br /&gt;2.&lt;br /&gt;3.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hopesnwishes:62038</id>
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    <title>ohhh</title>
    <published>2008-10-02T01:07:06Z</published>
    <updated>2008-10-02T01:07:06Z</updated>
    <content type="html">the beautiful beach.. i miss it so much&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;goal #1: The First Kiss.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Kisses kept are wasted; &lt;br /&gt;Love is to be tasted. "</content>
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  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hopesnwishes:61849</id>
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    <title>yeh</title>
    <published>2008-05-21T18:25:46Z</published>
    <updated>2008-05-21T18:25:46Z</updated>
    <content type="html">So i'm crushing on a couple of new guys right now. It's been a year, but i just didnt want anyone as "the rebound".  The one guy that I like more, I'm a little afraid he can be another Anthony.  So I'm going to back off a bit w/the texts and hitting on him.  If he wants, he can text me. Uggghhh. He drives me crazy.  So does the other one. Grr.  I can't believe Marc had said to Bri "The goal of the night is to get those two together.  It's long over due."  The goal of the night? Pssshhh and nothing even happened.  It's not like he TRIED to do something.  Lol.  We do flirt a lot, and I don't mind hooking up with him.  I just don't want it to be just a random hookup.  That's why I've waited so long.  I don't know how affectionate he is.  I asked him what he was doing on Valentine's Day and he said nothing, and then on the actual day he went on a double date with Mike.  So that's retarded.  So that's why I'm going to start backing off like I always do, because I don't know what exactly he wants.  He wants me to sleep next to him.  I think about all of the stuff and I'm just like uuh?  I guess I just need to kiss and see, cause if I don't, then I'll never see what'll happen.  I'll never get to see if he ends up calling more or would want to take me out on dates.  I'll never see it.  So I guess the next time he shows me that place, or wants me to meet him in the copy room, I will ;).  We are hanging out this weekend..... I guess that's a plus. Actually not because marc is the one that planned all of this lol.  I guess we'll see how THAT goes. I'll update.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&amp;lt;3bRit</content>
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  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hopesnwishes:61592</id>
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    <title>broken hearted</title>
    <published>2008-05-01T00:10:20Z</published>
    <updated>2008-05-01T00:10:20Z</updated>
    <content type="html">It's not like anyone reads this anymore... Especially since everyone started using myspace. Once again, like I've said many times before, my heart is broken. This has happened to me too many times.. N wat sucks even more is that no one's been able to pick me up... And it's been a year. most times when I was crushed, there was always someone there to lift me up... but now, there's no one.. n I'm tryna deal with it but it's really hard...


I just wish there was someone to lift me up like all the other times..</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hopesnwishes:61296</id>
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    <title>hopesnwishes @ 2008-03-10T07:08:00</title>
    <published>2008-03-10T14:08:18Z</published>
    <updated>2008-03-10T14:08:18Z</updated>
    <content type="html">ill update wen the weight starts dropping again lol</content>
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  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hopesnwishes:61137</id>
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    <title>DAY? lol</title>
    <published>2008-03-10T02:53:19Z</published>
    <updated>2008-03-10T02:53:19Z</updated>
    <content type="html">127&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;time to start again with the hardcore diet</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hopesnwishes:60897</id>
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    <title>hopesnwishes @ 2008-03-08T08:51:00</title>
    <published>2008-03-08T16:51:35Z</published>
    <updated>2008-03-08T16:51:35Z</updated>
    <content type="html">got a new scale&lt;br /&gt;digital &lt;br /&gt;127.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;time to get the fruit!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;startin a new diet monday... well its how I lost 20 lbs so its a newy but an oldy.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;lets see how the last 17 lbs will b.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;time to go hardcore again brit&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I must have more muscle  to weigh this much cuz I wear a size 2 almost a 0 n my friend does too.. but shes 118... crazy hah</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hopesnwishes:60542</id>
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    <title>day 7</title>
    <published>2008-03-06T20:28:19Z</published>
    <updated>2008-03-06T20:28:19Z</updated>
    <content type="html">124&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;still fatass</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hopesnwishes:60399</id>
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    <title>Day 6</title>
    <published>2008-03-05T20:49:59Z</published>
    <updated>2008-03-05T20:49:59Z</updated>
    <content type="html">I'm still a fat ass!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;121 1/2-124&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I ATLEAST need to b 118 by sunday...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I'm being taken out for mexican food today... ughhh!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;so that means ill b on a juice fast from thurs-sun/mon</content>
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  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hopesnwishes:60037</id>
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    <title>day 5</title>
    <published>2008-03-05T01:03:09Z</published>
    <updated>2008-03-05T01:03:09Z</updated>
    <content type="html">todays weight 120 1/2-123&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;so I'm such a fat ass.. eating all these damn cookies!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;we'll c wat tomorrows weight is...</content>
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  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hopesnwishes:59761</id>
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    <title>Day 4</title>
    <published>2008-03-03T19:15:38Z</published>
    <updated>2008-03-03T19:15:38Z</updated>
    <content type="html">todays weight:122&lt;br /&gt;goal weigt: 110 by 3/17&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;so yes.. I was bad yesterday too. I had a bbq chicken sandwich without working out last night. BAD BAD ME!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;so I plan on going on this strict eating diet this week, where I have a bar for breakfast, a shake for lunch, n a bar for dinner. ill try to burn 1200 cals per day but we'll c. I'm atleast tryna get to 117/118 by this saturday or sunday so that next saturday I can b 113/114. I'm excited because I'm soooo close!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;ill update&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&amp;lt;3bRit</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hopesnwishes:59630</id>
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    <title>hopesnwishes @ 2008-03-02T12:30:00</title>
    <published>2008-03-02T20:30:59Z</published>
    <updated>2008-03-02T20:30:59Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Today's weight: 120 1/2 121&lt;br /&gt;Goal: 110 by 3/17&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;so last night I posted, n I said I didn't do too bad with a cookie n a jamba but later that night I went out with some friends n we had taco bell @ 330 in the morning! bad bad girl... I'm definitely working out at the gym really hard tonight! but it was cool to wake up this morning n talk to bri n christy for a while.. n go back home n see that on the scale I weigh 120 1/2, 121. sweet. I'm happy. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&amp;lt;3bRit</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hopesnwishes:59240</id>
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    <title>DAY 2</title>
    <published>2008-03-02T03:35:26Z</published>
    <updated>2008-03-02T03:35:26Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Today's Weight: 122&lt;br /&gt;Weight Goal: 110 by 3/17&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So I guess that kfc wrap didn't harm my body weight as much as I thought it would.  I know I ate it on thursday, btw I DIDNT workout that day, but usually whatever you do in a day, it shows up not the day after, but the day after that.  So I woke up today and i was 121 1/2 122 1/2, so I'll say 122. Yippee! I'm excited.  I tried on the BSwim swimsuits that I want, and they look AWESOME! I can't wait to get them :). I also tried on the A&amp;F clothing.  Yes ALL my stuff was either a 0 or an XS. So I'm happy.  I gotta workout though so i'll look good in those 0's and XS'. I'm sure I will though.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So what did I have today you ask?  I had a Strawberry Nirvana from jamba juice (16oz), a half of a chewy fudge cookie, half of an oatmeal raisin cookie, and some lemonade.  The cookies are fattening, but atleast I had the jamba.  A 16oz Strawberry Nirvana is 150 cals. ISNT THAT GOOD?!?! Hell yes.  &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;..just keep goin' just keep goin'</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hopesnwishes:59115</id>
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    <title>Day 1</title>
    <published>2008-02-29T17:41:13Z</published>
    <updated>2008-03-01T03:58:02Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Today's weight: 123&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;so I feel like poo today. after eating wat I ate yesterday I just feel bad. I probably am just used to not eating it. so my fast isn't really going to b a real fast, bcuz I'm drinking water, orange juice n I'm going to eat celery to get fiber. so I stepped on the scale today, n I was 121 1/2. I thought it was unreal. so I stepped on it two other times n it said 121 1/2. so I stepped on it 3 times after, n I was 122 1/2, 123 1/2, and 124 1/2.. so I'm just assuming now to split it up ill use the middle #, which is 123. this is going to be a great journey.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;and we're off...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;later today...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So i'm back at home...just had a sh**load of food.  So today for lunch, I had a slimfast, which is 180 cals. The whole day i've been drinking LOTS of water, so thats good.  Today was my mama's bday, so YOU KNOW I wanted to celebrate and eat.  So I ate some of her leftover pasta, which was tasty.  We sang happy bday @ home and ate some of the cake... Which i dont like cake, so I ate the frosting, YUM! lol So all in all i didn't do THAT BAD, but bad enough where after missing ONE day of gym, i DEFINITELY need to go tonight.  So I weighed in @ 123, and now I'm 125.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Lets see about tomorrow...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;be optimistic brit!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;night weight: 125&lt;br /&gt;goal weight: 110 by 3/17/08</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hopesnwishes:58835</id>
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    <title>Welcome to the GOOD LIFE</title>
    <published>2008-02-29T11:44:43Z</published>
    <updated>2008-02-29T11:44:43Z</updated>
    <content type="html">weight: 124 1/2, 125&lt;br /&gt;goal weight: 110 (by 3/17/08)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt; a little more than 2 1/2 weeks left to lose 15 lbs &lt;/b&gt;&lt;br /&gt;3/3/08-3/4/08: I &lt;b&gt;SHOULD&lt;/b&gt; be 120&lt;br /&gt;3/8/08-3/9/08: I &lt;b&gt;SHOULD&lt;/b&gt; be 115&lt;br /&gt;3/12/08-3/13/08: I &lt;b&gt;SHOULD&lt;/b&gt; be 110&lt;br /&gt;(1 lb per day)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I feel good.  No more being sad... I haven't cried in such a long time.. well it only seems long bcuz these weeks drag on and on very slowly.. Anywho, I cried last night not because of him, but of who I used to see and how I don't get to see them as much anymore...but it was only a couple of tears.. I miss them.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;SOOO that last entry about losing weight a while back has been going on.. YES i've cheated a bit, which is bad, but that means I'll work harder for my goal weight.. B4 it was only losing so much weight to get to 120...but now that im almost there, I want to get to 110. So I was 143 like two months ago, and now, at this exact moment, I'm 125. I was 122 1/2 123, but ofcourse after a day, i always gain 1 1/2-3 lbs. SO OFCOURSE when I don't see improvement I get upset and VERY impatient, which makes me eat. So the reason y im so impatient is cause I've been around 122-125 for the past week and a half. So today, yes I ate, maybe 1,000 cals worth, but it was bad.  So what happens when brittany eats like that?  She fasts.  So I am going to fast for about 4 days.  I will also be going to the gym/running those 4 days tryna lose up to 1200 cals per day.  So I'll be drinking distilled water for the next 4 days, and if i get hungry, I'll just drink more water.  If that doesn't satisfy me and i need something sweet, i'll get that Eating Works Vitamin water that is very low in Sodium and has no Calories.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So the weight at this time is 125 with only the bra on n 124 1/2 with bra off.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;my goal is to lose a lb a day... but WE'LL SEE.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;DAY 1&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I'll update</content>
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    <title>Valentine's Day</title>
    <published>2008-02-13T05:44:22Z</published>
    <updated>2008-02-13T05:44:22Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Valentine's Day is coming up.  For the past 3 yrs i have had a valentine. This year, nope. YAY ME! Feels kind of weird though. Like i'm kind of getting upset about it and idk y.  Because before 3 yrs ago, I've never have had a valentine at all. I didn't care as much as I do now...and I know it is a stupid holiday...but I realize why the day was so important to me. It took me so many yrs to figure out y the holiday is important to me. I think its because, back in the day when we would have Valentine's Day @ school and we would take part of class time to hand out valentine's candies/cards etc., I would always hardly get anything.  I mean i would give things to my friends too..so i wasnt expecting it from a boy..just anyone. I gave a candy&amp;mini card to everyone in my class(I think there were 25 of us). What do i get in my folder? Two cards.  How pathetic.  Which makes me realize now y this day means so much to me...because I always feel like I have no one.  Well, this year, I have no one again. At times im okay with it...but when i think about it im not.  It takes me back to the ol' days when i used to not get back when i gave to others. I realize that no one can hurt me anymore. Time to hurt YOU.</content>
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    <title>asshole</title>
    <published>2007-11-28T07:56:15Z</published>
    <updated>2007-11-28T07:56:15Z</updated>
    <content type="html">so i realized why people kept saying they heard he was an asshole.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;and he basically is</content>
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    <title>Dieting</title>
    <published>2007-11-20T10:01:48Z</published>
    <updated>2007-11-20T10:01:48Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Since i'm a single lady now...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I might as well look my bestest lol&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;so i'm going on a diet&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I want to lose 20 lbs in one month &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I say 20, cause i'm pushing for just 15..but 20 would be nice&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;i'm 135 without food and 140 with food&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;so i'm doing it by saying i'm 140&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;so if i lose 20 i'll be 120&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;WOOOWWW i really want to be 125 again&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So usually a month is about 4-5 weeks&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;If I start on friday, since thanksgiving is coming up,&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I'll do it the nov 23- dec 23&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Then i'll be ready for the new year :D&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;so that means&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;in 5 weeks I have to lose 20 lbs&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So in two in a half weeks I have to lose ten&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;and in 1.75 weeks I have to lose 5&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;DAMN this will be HARD&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I'll update. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&amp;lt;3bRit</content>
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    <title>not feeling TOO well</title>
    <published>2007-11-15T07:35:03Z</published>
    <updated>2007-11-15T07:35:03Z</updated>
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    <content type="html">Things are rough&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Nothing ever goes right for me&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;It's like the stupidest, bitchiest, high maintenance type girl wins more than i do&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Oh forgot the cheaters&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I don't want to put myself higher than anyone,&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;But I think i'm kind of great actually&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I don't call&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Don't get jealous(unless we split, thats when you get it bad)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I don't care if you hang out with girls(unless we split, its fine, do whatever you want, but its hard for me to take), &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Cause i definitely hang out with other guys&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I don't need to be "bought"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I'd rather see you once a week rather than 24/7&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;..the list could go on..&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Like I'm so good that people tell me I act like the "guy" in the relationship&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I just don't care to start a lot of bullshit drama&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;that's a waste of my time.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Now&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I'm at day 1 again&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Lonely&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;not sick yet, but i know i will be soon&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Going on the 6th month&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;and i STILL haven't moved on&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;How can I if he's still on my cellphone plan?&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;like his mom and my mom say, you can wait, you have a long time &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;But what if I don't want to wait?&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;It's really hard for someone to get rejected TWICE by the same person and want to wait&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;ESPECIALLY when they've loved them for so long&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;He wants to be more independent&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Well, you got your independence&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;And in your time of need, for ex: back aches, feet massages, you're here&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;When I even TRY to forget you, you appear&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;You say "move on and keep on moving"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;But yet when i'm trying to do so, you pop back up to go get some food or whatever.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I'm tired of this shit&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I know you can't promise me anything&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;But that's my definition of love&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;When you LOVE someone, you never fall out of love with them&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;And i asked you what if when you're ready for a relationship, and i'm not there?&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;You said, "I'll deal with it"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Now maybe I'm just way more mature than you with this whole L.O.V.E. thing,&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;But when you love someone you try every way possible to make sure that they love you back&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;And for them to go and start dating someone else, will be heartbreaking.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Whatever. Day 1 starts tomorrow&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Actually, I'll call this day one&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I'm never calling you again&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;peace</content>
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    <title>hopesnwishes @ 2007-08-08T21:35:00</title>
    <published>2007-08-09T04:36:37Z</published>
    <updated>2007-08-09T04:36:37Z</updated>
    <content type="html">boys stink&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;love doesnt exist&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;men stink&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;love stinks&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;YOU STINK&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;and you're not worth MY time i see&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;cuz you've taken it for granted</content>
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    <title>:D</title>
    <published>2007-07-12T05:20:27Z</published>
    <updated>2007-07-12T05:20:27Z</updated>
    <content type="html">haha wat wouldve been really cheesy is if i posted at exactly 11:50 like last time...but i dont care that much lol</content>
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    <title>july 11,2007</title>
    <published>2007-07-12T05:19:29Z</published>
    <updated>2007-07-12T05:19:29Z</updated>
    <content type="html">it's kind of funny how today i'm checking this thing, and the last time i posted was exactly a year ago...thats awesome. i doubt myspace will ever be like this lol. being with him for so long i already picked up certain things...i'm more discrete now so i dont like to put my whole life on this journal. i'm chill. lol&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;...i love you sooooooooo much if you still didn't know...</content>
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    <title>So..</title>
    <published>2006-07-11T19:06:59Z</published>
    <updated>2006-07-11T19:06:59Z</updated>
    <content type="html">So i decided to update...i dont know i'm just bored.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;a year ago today...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;i really dont know what i was doing...probably just hanging out.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;lol beach&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;After graduating high school a year and a couple of months ago, i can say a lot of things have changed.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;i miss a lot of people&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;i knew my "clique" would split, but i didn't think we wouldnt stop talking.  I mean yeah i talk to bri a lot, but the other one, not so much anymore.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;i've found a new group, which i did sit near them during high school, but never thought i'd hang out with them after highschool&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;i think that all started at mik's senior year. lol&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;well maybe a little different..because it was alex, me, xavier, tithi, brendan, mikaela and brianna...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;and now its.....alex, me, brendan, xavier, tithi, giselle, and sometimes liz&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;but i also have another group of friends that i hang out with:  giselle, jen, stacey, and justene&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;i occasionally try to chill with bri because we've known each other for such a long time and try and keep in touch and hang out every so often.  YES WE ACTUALLY TRY.  the other one is pretty busy with her boyfriend.  I dont blame her, but she could bring him along you know? Whatever.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;As for Chris Boyle, who was another person who I could say was a really close friend senior year...we REALLY dont talk.  I don't even have his number. lol.  i dont know, all i remember is in Mr. La Rue's class, he tells me to keep in touch...and gets all sad or whatever because he didnt think i was.  and he was saying we really have to be close in college like we are now....because we know how people get after highschool, they split.  so anywho i kept my promise..but he didnt keep his.  I swear i did something to him last year, i dont know what, to make him stop talking to me.  I get sad sometimes cause he was a really good friend. i would help him with his problems, and he helped me with mine. he was kind of like a brother.  anywho, i still try to get in touch with him, but he doesn't fucking care so whatever...thats that.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;almost a year ago, or maybe a year ago, i finally got with brendan.  yeah we're still together, and i can say it's been a wonderful year!  i hate myself sometimes because i get mad at him for the stupidest things.  but i cant help that i get jealous sometimes,and that i think every guys i'm with will cheat on me, knock on wood.  but its true, all the guys i've "seen"  cheated on me...even though we werent going out, i still think its cheating because it was behind my back. stupid boys.  anywho, thats just stuck in me, but i realize brendan wont come close to that. i'm in love with him.  i try not to think about him 24/7 because then i'll miss him more when i'm not with him...cause i admit it, i'm with him a lot.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;i hope all goes very well with that&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;and i hope all my wishes come true&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;like my screen name...HOPESNWISHES&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;it first was howilove...which was supposed to be for anthony i think.  which i thought i loved him, but i came to know that i wasnt really in love with him. I was just crushed. and then thats when i made my sn into hopesnwishes because i was crushed so crushed and i still liked him that i was hoping and wishing that he'd come back.  I found out I was in love with brendan because I even stopped eating after the time he wanted to stop seeing me.  I was so pissed off. But mostly sad.  To tell you the truth  I didnt have that great of a prom..it was fun..but it couldve been better.  All i kept thinking was, we're going to get back to school..and go to post prom, and he's going to be with HER.  And I was right...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;anywho there was a lot of drama that year..i'm glad its over&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;i can't wait what will be coming in the future.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;every year i make new friends&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;so i can't wait for this year.</content>
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    <title>i dont want anything to change</title>
    <published>2006-03-28T19:17:43Z</published>
    <updated>2006-03-28T19:17:43Z</updated>
    <content type="html">i love my life. :)</content>
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    <title>WOO I GOT A JOB!</title>
    <published>2005-09-04T21:44:56Z</published>
    <updated>2005-09-04T21:44:56Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Wooo I applied for the new Hollister at the Northridge mall on friday. Then i got a call back on saturday, and you know what that means...I got a job! So when hollister opens come visit me !</content>
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